This week I find myself being booked against a newer talent. Not only am I going against a newer talent but I am at the opening of the show.... how fucking wrong is that? Have I gotten that bad recently that I am now an opener? I am not okay with that. I might have some things going on that have me a little fucked up but its not enough to distract me from what matters... and that is my career. I have put many things on hold... like a life outside of the business, just so I could get to where I am today... I will be damned if I am going to let Norman turn around and start booking me at the start of the show. You see... Lance might be in cahoots with his son Tyler again.. but I will not let that change the way things are. If anything, I have been there for Lance more than Tyler ever was... and sometimes blood is not thicker than water.

Anson Larue has something else coming to him this week. I am a woman on a mission. I have plenty to prove. You might have some things going on with Twist because of your attitude problem, but that had better be behind you when you step into the ring. I am not a member of the backstage staff. I am not some female who does not know how to get things done in the ring. I have been in this business for many years, and I know how to make things happen in the ring. 

Your best bet Larue is to step into the ring and accept that you will be defeated. Walk away and realize its just another stepping stone and you will have to continue to learn to get better. Think of this match as a learning process for you kid... because that's what it should be. An attitude like yours will only get you enemies in this business kid, and what you dont want to make me... is an enemy. Step into the ring and give it your all. When its all said and done and I walk away with the win... just learn from it... because if you come at me running your mouth like you did with Twist... I can promise that I will make your life a living hell. 

Not many people can say they got to beat on a monster and walk away from it untouched. It wasn't something that Kaylyn wanted to brag about however... it was more so something that she couldn't understand.  Growing up Kaylyn lived knowing that if a woman was with enough nerve to strike a male, she had better expect to be smacked back. All was fair in love and war. The fact that Legion just stood there and didn't do a damn thing back to her was unfathomable. She knew it had everything to do with Synn too. Synn was the reason he didn't touch her at all.. and the why was something she did not understand.

Taking a week to clear her thoughts seemed like a good idea... just take off and not tell anyone where she was going. However, her thoughts still clouded her mind the entire time. Driving back home she groaned as it started to pour and pulled over along the edge of the bridge leaving her lights on. A soft sigh came from the brunette before she let her head fall to rest on the wheel.

 

*FlashBack Hours Before*

"Well this is a bit of a surprise. The last time I seen you I was being told to leave the hospital room. What do you want Kaylyn?"

Kaylyn laughed as she stood in the doorway to her fathers house. Derrick Kilborn was someone she had only seen once since being a child and moving out with her aunt and uncle. It was someone she never wanted to see and he surprised her showing up at the hospital after her sister Lilith had blindsided her to take her out of competition.  "Oh come on now Dad." Kaylyn said the word with much disdain  "No love shown for your baby girl?" Kaylyn laughed and shook her head before walking past him and entering his apartment without waiting for his okay to do so.

"Well sure, come on in Kaylyn. Make yourself at home."

 "I don't think you really expected me to wait for you to offer now did you? Look, can we just pretend to be a happy family for a minute here? Sit down and have some small talk Derrick... It wouldn't kill you."

Realizing he had no choice in the matter he closed the door before moving through the room and taking a seat on a chair across from his daughter.  "So Kaylyn... How's life?"

"Fucking amazing dad. Got a match this week against some blue angel or whatever. Looking forward to it. I am sure you know all about me though and whats been going on. I guess I should ask you how things are..."

"Things are fine here. I am surprised you're not with Tyler right now."

"What? I haven't been with Tyler for a while now Derrick."

"Sorry, I stopped paying attention to what was going on after Lilith left."

Kaylyn sat there and shook her head while her hands slowly went to either side and gripped at her hair.

"What do you mean you stopped paying attention? Did you ever give a damn about me Derrick? I swear once mom got pregnant with that little cunt everyone pushed me aside completely. Where is she now Derrick?! Where is your precious Lilith? She lost her fucking job and became a nobody. She was and will always be nothing. Still... it's her you care about."

Derrick was silent for a moment before speaking and changing the topic back to Tyler. "So what happened with you and Tyler than?"

Kaylyn stood up quickly, shoving the table over in the process. "Don't act like you give a damn Derrick! If I had things my way I would be with Tyler right now. You want to know what happened? Just like you.... just like Mom... he went away. He walked away and never looked back. Are you happy now? Is that what you wanted to hear? Do you like the fact that everyone keeps pushing me away? Are you enjoying seeing me falling apart? THIS IS YOUR FAULT DERRICK!" Kaylyn moved past him and out the door slamming it behind her. Derrick sat there not saying a word and not moving to clean anything at all. 

*End Flashback*

Kaylyn shook her head as she sat up. She didn't want to think about her time with Derrick Kilborn. She only went to see him because she had been lonely, and he couldn't turn her down... not without a fight. Ha, her... lonely. Not something she would admit to anyone aloud. Her loneliness is what caused her to dig the doll out of the garage in the first place. So many times she needed someone to talk to... someone to be there for her, and no one was there. No one cared.

Her thoughts were getting to her and her fist came down on the wheel before her head fell back against the seat. Tears started to fall from her eyes before she even knew they were forming. Holding her head back she stared up at the ceiling while wiping under her eyes stopping the emotions from showing. Taking a deep breathe Kaylyn went to pull away but something in the road caught her eye. Turning off the engine Kaylyn tilted her head as she stared out into the storm.

"Mom?"

Kaylyn moved her hand to the door and opened it before stepping out into the pouring rain.  Leaving the door opened she stepped forward to the open arms of her mother who was standing before her. Kaylyn held her mom, felt her standing there.... but how? Pulling back from her Kaylyn shook her head.

"Am I dreaming?"

"No baby. You're not."

"Than how? You're dead."

"You needed me, so I am here."

"Why now? You were never here for me before. It was always the baby. You stopped caring for me the second you got pregnant with her... and she killed you while giving birth to her."

"I am sorry you have felt this way all this time Kaylyn... but that is not how it was. There is so much more that you don't know about. You were too young to understand."

"Don't give me that shit. You never cared and I will never forgive you for that."

"You will understand some day. Until then, I will take care of Kevin for you... or have you forgotten all about him?"

The name took Kaylyn off guard and she stood there stunned for a moment as her mother started to fade away in the distance. Shaking her head she ran after her.

"Wait... Mom wait!"

Kaylyn ran faster before tripping and falling forward into the railing along the edge of the bridge. Unable to stop herself she went over and fell into the current below.  Upon contact Kaylyn was pulled deeper into the pool of water, and was struggling to get above for air. While struggling a baby showed before her and she stopped struggling, reaching out for Kevin, until she blacked out.

A pregnant Kaylyn had never wanted to stop and put her career on hold just because she found out she was currently with child. Two months along when she found out, she figured she could continue to wrestle until she started to show, and all would be well. She was foolish and when she lost the baby she took time off to put it behind her.... but it never went away. The fact that she caused her own child's death has continued to haunt her to this day... and she made sure never to tell a soul about it.

....And might not ever have the chance.

 

"Over here!"

The two words were yelled by a male voice as he directed others to where Kaylyn had washed up onto shore. The male knelt down and placed his fingers to the neck of the brunette.

"Is there a pulse?" Asked by one of the others as they started to join him.