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The pain I am feeling right now is beyond anything I have felt before. However, it’s not the pain from what went through in the match that is getting to me… No, its what happened at the pay-per-view in whole. I can’t shake what I watched happen on the screen. How in the hell did this happen?

 

The weather was still pretty nice, and I was taking advantage of it. Short jean shorts, and a black tank top which had the word Bitch written across it was my attire, along with my favorite Reebok sneakers. Walking along the boardwalk had been my plans for the day, and I was loving it. I needed it to let loose after the match I had just been in days ago. My body was sore as hell still, but I was pushing through the pain just like I always did.

Most places were still closed, however a few shops along the way for snacks and relaxation were opened. Seeing my “friend” up ahead brought a half smile along my face. Walking over towards her I hugged her very briefly before speaking.

“Matthews. It’s good to see you again.”

“Good seeing you too, Evans.”

Ah, something I never got tired of. The relationship between myself and Aurora Matthews was rather difficult to explain. In the ring we never got along really, and out of it, we have had our issues with one another as well, but somehow, we still tolerated one another and did actually confide in eachother.

“Coffee?” Stupid question as I already knew she would say yes. Her smile said as much and we headed over towards a small coffee shop before sitting down and talking for a while. Myself with my french vanilla cold coffee and danish still untouched. Aurora however was loving her Mocha latte, full milk, whipped cream, and her almond and dark chocolate biscotti. After everything that had been said, Aurora knew I was feeling out of it, and didn’t know where to go from here. 

“How about a reading?” She had asked me getting my attention back. She knew how I felt about that kind of stuff. I believed, to an extent. At one point  I never did, however, after receiving a doll with a pin in it years ago from Momma Cross herself, the things I went through had me become a believer.. to an extent.

“Yeah, I can’t see what harm it would do at this point.” I stated while shrugging and taking a sip of my beverage enjoying the taste.

I watchedas Aurora gave me a tiny mysterious smile, and then dug in the small backpack she ws using for a purse, bringing it around to sit in her lap. Her nimble fingers drew out a pack of card wrapped in silk, the silk laid in a clear spot on the tabe as the crumbs of the delicious biscotti had been brushed free, and then she shuffled those painted cards before handing hem to me. “Cut the deck, then set it on the silk.” Simple enough.

Aurora waited for me to do that, just watching her… friend? Of course Aurora felt that way, no matter how many times they had indeed been rivals when it came to the ring. After I cut the deck, and reassembled the cards I placed them on the silk before watching as Aurora’s fingers hoovered over the cards. Fanning them out four were chosen before she laid them out in a cross style. “This is just a simple reading…. a sort of Celtic Cross but…. simple.” Laying them out, she gently touched each one before explaining them to me as she went

“The Wheel of Fortune. It is time for a change. The fool is drawn into the light, out of the darkness of life. Given the cup, the sword, coins, and it is that luck is on your side here in what you will decide to do. All the good you have doe, no matter how slight or fleeting, will be repaid to you, three-fold.”

I thought about that for a minute while she tapped the next card.

“The Two of Wands. This card is also about making a choice,and Wands represents passion. A passion that requires a single focus and should not be split. This tells yo tht you must make a choice about where to put your energies and passion. Equal directions are available to you, but you must pause and decide one over the other. You won’t regret your choice baby, but you may regret that you only have the energy enough to choose one path.”

I was thinking hard about that and sat back in the chair lost for a second while she hoovered over the third card before I heard her speaking once more.

“The Six of Pentacles, where you are not too proud to take the help that you need, no matter the source, and that help will be given freely so both will gain from this exchange.”

That  final card, the key card of the reading Aurora took he time with.

“The Knight of Swords. This indicates again an environment of rapid changes, ideas fly and problems or challenges that quickly appear are quickly solved. But, you must be careful not to over think things. Go with the gut instinct, Kaylyn, or you will experience restlessness and resist the change you should embrace. Consider the consequences of your words and actions while his is active in your life, and it will help you find clever ways to win in battle.”

A quirk came to those full, sinful lips of the woman that had once been called Ghost, and then HellKat. “Well now, that was a pretty positive reading, wouldn’t you say?”

I was unable to respond, as I was already doing what she said not to do, and thinking too much about everything. Fuck my life.

 

Later that night I found myself waking up out of a restless sleep. Jesus, I was failing already. I had to stop thinking about that reading. If only I could. It is time for a change. I have been thinking about that a lot lately myself, although the change that came about was not quite what I was looking for. Something else has to happen. But wait…. what if the change is not positive at all? Sure she said luck is on myside…. but I am going against someone in the syndicate this week, and that could be a very bad thing.. Ugh, there I go thinkig about everything again. How can I not think about it though?

I sighed while laying there trying to fall asleep. Maybe if I just closed my eyes tight. A passion that requires a single focus and should not be split. How can I manage Chase, or focus on what Tyler is up to if I need to focus on what I need to do to keep myself going in this business? DAMN IT! Closing my eyes was not helping at all.

I pushed the covers aside and walked over to the doors leading to the balcony. Opening them up I stepped outside an enjoyed the cool air that hit me in the face. You are not too proud to take the help that you need, no matter the source, and that help will be given freely so both will gain from the exchange. I had no idea what to think about that. I was not gaining at all… not that I could see. Leaning on the rail I looked out at the dark night sky. Problems or challenges that arrive, are quickly solved. That brought a smile across my face.

“Maybe The Syndicate will fall sooner rather than later. I for one have no problem trying to make sure that happens, and I know others who feel that way as well. It’s going to continue this week with D-Rok. Devlin, your time is limited. I am not going to sit back and watch everything be torn apart… and I am not going to sit back and watch someone destroy their career. You might think that because you are a part of the Syndicate you are safe because you have someone to watch your back… but that is not how it works. I have beat you once Devlin, and while it was not a one on one match, this time it will be. This time you will not be able to make any excuses for when I get the win over you. Face the facts, being a part of that group, is holding you back… and I will prove that to you in the ring. You are on the wrong side…. you turned your back on Mr. Norman, and you will have to pay for that. You have a long line of punishment coming your way. Ask Tyler. He knows what happens when someone pisses off Lance Norman. Hell, he helped send messages from Lance to everyone else. He is a foolish man. Then again… you all seem to be. I will see you in the ring soon enough. And Tyler… such a shame to see you going down the wrong path. You should know better than anyone else, keep your friends close, and your enemies closer. You’re digging your own grave, and I am going to hate watching as you fall into it.”